That reminds me on my ex boyfriend which I had as a teen. He was also older and bigger, but also very gentle. He made sure that I felt free and safely. He undressed me slowly, kissing my body. I'd be fully naked before we went any further. Not even socks, nothing. Then we'd cuddle and kiss until I sucked his dick. Then he'd bend me over, lick my butt hole and then slowly slide his dick into my ass. But we used lube. No pain, more fun. He'd fuck me very softly and kiss me in the beginning, then he went faster and harder. I loved having sex with him, he was always caring about my well being. But when he fucked me hard, I totally loved it. That was so special. We were loud when he fucked me hard. For good reasons. His dick was 20 x 5 (cm). And it felt so great!!!